rawrbyn

My heart is out of control

I feel the air get thick

And when I breathe in

It is like breathing fog

My head is swimming

And my pulse is racing

And I just can’t seem to slow it down

I just can’t seem to stop it

I just can’t

I want to smoke my lungs to death

I want to hold my head under the faucet and drink hot water

Until my mouth bleeds from the heat

I want to cry

But I forget how

I don’t really feel like they know me all that well anyway

I can sit still and watch the waves come up and kiss the shore

While they grow weary of my patience and need a change of subject

soon enough they’ll rot and die

If not their bodies, then at least of heart mind and soul

And if my name is always on their tongue

That’s the only taste they’ll ever get of me

Standing there with her arms wrapped around herself

sulking and wanting to be alone

he says

why are you just standing there holding yourself?

she sighs and rolls her eyes

and says

someone’s gotta do it.

I’ve got the sun coming in through the window

In our bedroom, Lightin’ up your whole face

The smell of your skin will chase away

All the bad dreams, All of the wreckage

I dreamed of blood

Drainin’ from my face, Cold like a ghost in the winter

The weight of the world

Piled high on our backs

Oh well I don’t know how we’ll weather, this storm

When I wake up next to you

When  I wake up right next to you

All is forgiven